Sep 8Ternyata gw suka tinggal sendiriHari ini adalah hari ke-5 suamiaw meninggalkan gw untuk work trip ke Vietnam. Kami selalu tinggal bersama sejak awal menikah dan kami sangat coock dalam banyak hal khususnya gaya hidup. Kami punya jadwal dan gaya hidup yang rigit. Kami suka makanan yang slow cooking, masakan rumahan yang sehat dan punya…Blog2 min readBlog2 min read
Aug 21Mencuri Mimpi-mimpi MantanPada satu hari yang terik pada musim panas di Jerman. Gw sedang mencuci pikiring lalu terlintas dalam memori tentang bagaimana dulu aku sering menghabiskan waktu pada hari minggu ke Pemda Cibinong dengan mantan pacar pertamaku, sebut saja I. Sebagai pensiunan dan cuma punya anak satu, ibu I kadang-kadang jualan di…Blog3 min readBlog3 min read
Apr 19Pekerjaan paling menyenangkan di duniaTahun in igw akan menginjak usia 29 tahun dan berarti masa-masa galau hidup-mau-dibawa-ke-mana harusnya sudah berakhir. Tentu saja jalan terjal menyelesaikan fase tersebut tidak mudah untuk dilalui. Sebelum menginjak usai 25 saja gw sudah dipenuhi rasa khawatir: takut tua, takut keriput, takut enggak banyak tenaga lagi, bingung mau kerja jadi…Blog6 min readBlog6 min read
Apr 6Abortion in Germany part 2Pregnancy is about using a woman’s body as a medium for creating a new human being. And if the woman does not give consent to her body for being a medium for a baby, then you are not expecting anything. Pregnancy was never simply about giving birth to a baby…10 min read10 min read
Apr 6Abortion in Germany and things you need to knowI forgot to write because many things, but mostly my depression. I just get back from Estonia, still pregnant because somehow the legal abortion in Germany required a lot of filling papers that took me 3 weeks to complete after the second time come and back to my first and…11 min read11 min read
Mar 16Parasite 4So it has been a while since I am able to concentrate, sitting in front of my laptop, gathering myself together just to continue living. At certain point I am glad that I have my dream job, being a chef. And working is the only thing that keep me sane…4 min read4 min read
Mar 10Parasite 3I have been crying for whole week as I found out that I am pregnant. I don’t want this and I feel the whole world crumbles around me. I barely concentrate, my feet hurts, my body hurts, I feel breast tenderness, super lazy and tired all the time. …3 min read3 min read
Mar 9Parasite 2I hate pregnancy. I really do. I like children and babies but I don’t like the idea of being pregnant. The whole body change and I really hate it. …2 min read2 min read
Mar 8Parasit 1Parasit itu bersemayam di tubuhku. Aku mengetahuinya dua minggu yang lalu. Awalnya aku merasa senang bahwa tubuhku ternyata bisa seperti standar perempuan normal pada umumnya, lalu aku membayangkan betapa bahagianya orang-orang di sekelilingku apabila mereka dengar kabar tentang perkembangan tubuhku sepulang dari Indonesia. Hari berikutnya rasa senang itu mulai memudar…1 min read1 min read
Nov 27, 2022Reflection of being an Adult ModelRecently I embrace a hobby that I really wanna tried since I was kid. Being a model. I was growing up with people surrounds me telling me that I was born with pretty face. …Blog5 min readBlog5 min read
